DEAR DADDY!

ITS BEEN OVER 2 YEARS NOW SINCE YOU TOOK YOUR LAST BREATH. EVERYDAY IT SEEMS TO GET HARDER TO EXPECT THAT YOUR NOT COMING BACK. I TRY TO THINK POSITIVE AND NOT BE SAD, BUT SOMETIMES I JUST CANT HELP IT. PEOPLE SAY "REMEMBER THE GOOD TIMES, HE WOULDN'T WANT YOU TO BE SAD". REMEMBERING JUST MAKES ME SADDER, BUT I CANT HELP BUT REMEMBER.SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE SAYING "HE DOESN'T EXPECT ME TO BE HAPPY AND GO ON AS IF HE DIDN'T MATTER EAITHER". SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIKE NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND MY PAIN. SOMETIMES THE PAIN OF NOT HAVING YOU AROUND IS TOO MUCH TO BARE, I KNOW YOUR NOT GONE COMPLETELY. I KNOW THAT YOUR IN EVERY MEMORY AND MOST OF ALL IN MY HEART. BUT I WISH I COULD JUST HUG YOU ONE LAST TIME AND GIVE A KISS AND HEAR YOU TELL ME ANOTHER STORY, OR TELL ME HOW TO TAKE YOU TO GRANDMA'S HOUSE, EVEN THOUGH I HAD TAKEN YOU THERE HUNDREDS OF TIMES AND I KNEW MY WAY! I THINK OF YOU EVERYDAY, AND I MISS YOU EVERY DAY. I KNOW YOUR GONE AND CAN'T COME BACK. I KNOW THAT ON THAT DAY YOU TOOK YOUR LAST BREATH, YOU WERE FREED. FREED FROM ALL YOU PAIN AND SUFFERING THAT YOU ENDURED FOR SO MANY YEARS. I KNOW THAT YOUR WATCHING OVER US EVERYDAY. I DO TAKE COMFORT IN THAT. BUT I WILL NEVER STOP MISSING YOU DADDY. SO AS YOU WATCH OVER ME AND MY FAMILY OUR SPECIAL ANGEL, JUST KNOW HOW MUCH YOUR LOVED AND MISSED EVERYDAY!